another name?

i write something here, and you leave a comment today on my blog.
i'm glad--finally , you say something to me. at least, it means that you think about me sometime.
i am always considering that you come to visit my blog occasionally.
but , you are using another name, that is quite strange and bizzar.
why?
well, i am sensitive person, i have to think about some possible reasons.
maybe, it is your english name now, and you just use it freely.
maybe, you want to make it all new again.
maybe, you think it is strange to leave a message by using the old name after so long time of slience.
maybe, you want to me to guess , and ask you some problems.
but, i am quite sure that you would know that i will know exactly that it is you, it is nothing big deal.
you would never know how much i concern about you.
well, at least, you are thinking about me at that moment.
you know what, i met a old friend today, who had the story just like mine--some relationship which ends up without the beginning. the girl went to Japan--quite familier, right?
and one of my friends said it will be nothing between us, it is impossible for us to be together.
i don't know. honestly, i really don't have much faith, because i am not so sure about the future and my own feeling, not mentioning yours.
maybe, maybe, a long time later.
i have to make myself independent and great.
waiting for someone, especially you.