don't be weak

it's the whole old stuff . i bet that my parents have been quite sure that i will definately stay here to continue my study. and i really afraind to argue with them or defend myself . once i talk with them , i become so not sure about myself . well , i have always been so confused when i have to make a decision , and it is really tough for me . i have so much to consider that their mood ,and their face expression , can totally make me give up everything that i have in my mind before.

i'd like to take lessons that taught in english, and i think it's kind of interesting and it's really good for me. i don't like my major, and i won't like it more in the future. i always think about to find my type of career , but if i stay here , it's will not likely that i can have time or energy or any chance to do this. i'm quite a careful and safe person. unless my whole life gets through a huge change, can never i be a grown-up.

well , right now, i just need to wait for the acceptence to that school . it seems that lots of students all around the world are applying for these schools . there is a fierece competation and i should chase the opportunity if i am lucky enough to be accepted.

with her

afternoon , time for supper , i saw him with a gril , smiling and heading to a restaurant--they were just in front of me and walked straight towards me . i could tell that he saw me , and seemed a little awkward . well , i was a little nervous . Luckily for me , i was with my friend , and i was about to give him a warm "hello". But he just turned to right , and walked into the restaurant near him . i hope that i made the right guess that he was just too awkward to pass by--and now i just feel very funny , although i really want to know their relationship

according to my friend , it is not likely they are just ordinary friend because there are only two of them . and i am quite sure that she is not his girlfriend.

i am a little looking forward to receive his message about this whole thing . but what should he say to me , i don't need to know his life nor his friends -- we are not so close to share everything. we are even not friends . and if he did send me something , then ... that would mean something, which i don't expect to happen at all because it is just impossible.

he left a "o..."on my blog--funny again .

maybe it just intends to be like this .

well , i will know you better , i swear.