what does he want

i want to say something between me and the boy . i can never deny being an emotional girl , but i always pretend to be like that , and i always think about :that is not a big deal , i can handle it by my own , and time have the ability to let me forget all about the stuff -- well , it really is , i am sure .

he and me were in the same class before the major is seperated into two colleges . we have ever taken the same classes , and have ever gone singing twice . he is good at talking , and a little funny and he sings well -- that's all the impression i have about him .

then , just one day , we talked with me on the net . some jokes , and some future plans . i have no idea why he just turns up into my life all of a sudden . we just talk a lot , on the net , by sending messages , but we do not talk a lot face to face .

but i just feel very strange and surprised to see that he is with a girl close . i can see that he even deal with his hair . i even can't recognize him . he never tolds me that he has a girlfriend . later , he tells me about that , actually i don't want to ask , and he don't need to explain anything . but he also says that they will break up soon -- what ? he can't say something like that , what the girl will think about ? and my friend just tells me that he never mentioned about the girl but now told my about her actively , and emphasize they would break up , that's all because he wanted to move on with me . -- i never think about that , and then i decide i will not talk with him on the net -- it's totally a lie , and i will never believe in the talking without seeing the other's face expressions .

maybe i just be accustomed to talk with him , some sweet words , some compliments , i am vanity after all . i really haven't been talking with him on the net for a long time . i really curioused about what is he doing these days , how he is been , why he never show up in my lists and does he avoid to meet me on the net ?

i just want to know .
it's not true really .

and i only want to ask : are you OK?