the examinations are over , now , and i'll declare to all of the world ...
but i don't feel very excited , and i just feel very tired , i say that i have lose my way , i don't know what i shall do now . well , many stuff , like english , like work , like the study . someone says that all because i won't come back home . but i also don't want to stay in the school for a week . then , what can i do ?
and another reason for my low spirit is that , i see the boy with a gril very intimately . i never thought about he had a gril friend , cause he always say some very nice words . i thought he is pursuing me . well , it seems that i have made a big mistakes . but i just wondering why he can say something like that . and now i have a very bad impression of him . the boys can not be trusted ! maybe i am a little moved , but i am hurt again , also , well , not so badly of course . i just imagine too much , well , take a good rest , and always trust yourself .
2007年4月19日星期四
fighting~
time is limited , and the examination is hard and coming nearer and nearer . well , just study hard ~ what can i do then ? but the result may not just like what you expected although you have tried hard and spend a lot time in it -- it's just the world , that you can never know when your effort will bring you success .
then , about the ielts test , i just wondering whether i should take the traing lessons , it's long and tired and expensive , and someone thinks it is useless , but i know that it is necessary . in a word , it's a very difficult year for me ~
and May ,1th is coming , my friend just told me that she will go to ningbo with a boy , and of course i can not go with them , that means she just ignored me and only concerned about the boy -- bad gril ~~ well , i can understand . two single friends get together , it will be funny . and she is energetic , and i am considering too much .
"you really need to have a travel around the place when you are in the college"someone just told to me ~
anyway , study first~
then , about the ielts test , i just wondering whether i should take the traing lessons , it's long and tired and expensive , and someone thinks it is useless , but i know that it is necessary . in a word , it's a very difficult year for me ~
and May ,1th is coming , my friend just told me that she will go to ningbo with a boy , and of course i can not go with them , that means she just ignored me and only concerned about the boy -- bad gril ~~ well , i can understand . two single friends get together , it will be funny . and she is energetic , and i am considering too much .
"you really need to have a travel around the place when you are in the college"someone just told to me ~
anyway , study first~
2007年4月15日星期日
examinations in one week
i have four examinations next week . but i don't feel like studying , now . i have surved on the net from 8:30 pm , well , maybe i'm just not so worried about that -- i have taken so many exams . but i have to remind myself , it's important that maybe i can be recommended to become a graduate student , and that will be the most wonderful thing during this year . i know that the 2007 is a very special year , and i will be another one ,and be in another situation that is totally different from now next year . a little exciting and a little frightened .
well , i have to try my best to prepare for the exams now , it's the plan i have to accomplish right now -- cheer up~~
tomorrow is another day , but also , don't always wait for tomorrow , you have to move now ~
and at the same time , dad and mam seem to get a lot of advantage since the stock rises well . but just be careful , it's good now , but we don't know what will happen tomorrow , just pay much attention to ~
good luck!!
well , i have to try my best to prepare for the exams now , it's the plan i have to accomplish right now -- cheer up~~
tomorrow is another day , but also , don't always wait for tomorrow , you have to move now ~
and at the same time , dad and mam seem to get a lot of advantage since the stock rises well . but just be careful , it's good now , but we don't know what will happen tomorrow , just pay much attention to ~
good luck!!
2007年4月14日星期六
toeic
i will take the toeic test later May~i'm not sure why , but i just will take it . it's useful to find a job or become an intern , but i don't think i'm ready to take a job , so i have decided to go on my study , and think about what is the most suitable work for me . then , why ?
maybe because toeic may be changed the form of test after June , it will be added the oral and writing part . and maybe because the fee is not so much , and it's easy for me to make up my mind to spend them . but the worst part is that i have to take the exam in shanghai , and at 9 am,it means i have to spend one night in shanghai away by my own (of caurse there's a boy with me , but it feels strange ~) . and about the boy , it seems that he has been grown up . last term , we call each other quite often (he calls me more) , but then , i just wonder why , we only say hi when we met . and i got used to it , and felt fine . well , now , we will take the exam together , and we have to travel to shanghai together , i feel terrible ~ i'm just a little exclude getting too close with a boy . but i find that he's a little different from last term . don't call me very often , but help me a lot . maybe he knows me better and also knows how to get along with me .
i just don't trust anybody , and i don't want anyone to concerned about me too much , i want to be strong when i am alone .
maybe because toeic may be changed the form of test after June , it will be added the oral and writing part . and maybe because the fee is not so much , and it's easy for me to make up my mind to spend them . but the worst part is that i have to take the exam in shanghai , and at 9 am,it means i have to spend one night in shanghai away by my own (of caurse there's a boy with me , but it feels strange ~) . and about the boy , it seems that he has been grown up . last term , we call each other quite often (he calls me more) , but then , i just wonder why , we only say hi when we met . and i got used to it , and felt fine . well , now , we will take the exam together , and we have to travel to shanghai together , i feel terrible ~ i'm just a little exclude getting too close with a boy . but i find that he's a little different from last term . don't call me very often , but help me a lot . maybe he knows me better and also knows how to get along with me .
i just don't trust anybody , and i don't want anyone to concerned about me too much , i want to be strong when i am alone .
2007年4月12日星期四
speaking english in your daily life
i received a message from lily yesterday , she said we should speak english with each other to improve our oral english . and i resent her the mssage that i was totally agreed with her . then , we just sent each other some english messages .
last night , she came to ask my roommates a few question . i just felt strange that when i opened the door , she just walked through me , smiling and without saying a word to me . i was surprised to see that she just talked with my roommate in chinese , well, i thought it would be the "word thing" again , no action~ but then she just went to talking with another roomates of mine , and said that she would try not to talk to me cause we had made a promise to speak english . i just figured out why she behaved like that , she was so cute and funny ~ and she is just worried about her ielts test .
yeah~the only result is that we talked less and less , and at last ,we can never prevent ourselves from using chinese , and we just take a deep breathe~ we have done that before when we were in the high school -- i almost forgot unless she reminded me ~
it's funny . and i have seen many passages about how to improve your speaking english , and the only way is to practise more~ some says that you can go to the english corner , i want to , but didn't put it into practice . and one day , i just made up my mind and went there , only found that it rained a little and no one's there except for a women who wanted to commend us to an english salon , and we also talked with her and felt ashamed that my oral english was really bad ~ and some one just advises to find a good partner to practise , and try your best to speak english with him all the time , and just stick to it .
it's hard , and need a long time to adapt your mind to work in an english world , think in english , speak in english and everything ~ well , just do it , and try your best , in one part , i like english.
last night , she came to ask my roommates a few question . i just felt strange that when i opened the door , she just walked through me , smiling and without saying a word to me . i was surprised to see that she just talked with my roommate in chinese , well, i thought it would be the "word thing" again , no action~ but then she just went to talking with another roomates of mine , and said that she would try not to talk to me cause we had made a promise to speak english . i just figured out why she behaved like that , she was so cute and funny ~ and she is just worried about her ielts test .
yeah~the only result is that we talked less and less , and at last ,we can never prevent ourselves from using chinese , and we just take a deep breathe~ we have done that before when we were in the high school -- i almost forgot unless she reminded me ~
it's funny . and i have seen many passages about how to improve your speaking english , and the only way is to practise more~ some says that you can go to the english corner , i want to , but didn't put it into practice . and one day , i just made up my mind and went there , only found that it rained a little and no one's there except for a women who wanted to commend us to an english salon , and we also talked with her and felt ashamed that my oral english was really bad ~ and some one just advises to find a good partner to practise , and try your best to speak english with him all the time , and just stick to it .
it's hard , and need a long time to adapt your mind to work in an english world , think in english , speak in english and everything ~ well , just do it , and try your best , in one part , i like english.
2007年4月9日星期一
the death note
i've just seen the movie -- the death note , tonight . i have heard about that from my roommate , and she read the comic book , but not the movie ~ well , it's just ok although something's different from the original story ~
what will you do if you can control anyone's death? well , this wrold is not fair all the time . the bad guys can not be punished . the rule of the world is confusing that we just begin to wonder what is wrong and right , and why the murderer , the robber can still destroy the peace of the world .
but , when the boy pick up the note in the rain , he becomes another one who destroy the world's happiness ~ there're many problems , like personal adoration , and self-complacent , and the intelligence between the two boys . but he is a bad egg now by killing so many people who are innocent and just try to potect himself from knowing by others who is the azrael really ~
a quite good movie ~ you'd better have a look at ~
what will you do if you can control anyone's death? well , this wrold is not fair all the time . the bad guys can not be punished . the rule of the world is confusing that we just begin to wonder what is wrong and right , and why the murderer , the robber can still destroy the peace of the world .
but , when the boy pick up the note in the rain , he becomes another one who destroy the world's happiness ~ there're many problems , like personal adoration , and self-complacent , and the intelligence between the two boys . but he is a bad egg now by killing so many people who are innocent and just try to potect himself from knowing by others who is the azrael really ~
a quite good movie ~ you'd better have a look at ~
2007年4月8日星期日
plan
i have finished my exam about computer finally , and i don't want to say something about that , cause the problem of programming is toooooooo easy that i have done it in five minutes . but the test , i don't know , maybe just pass or just fail -- tough reality ~
then i talked with my friend about my plan on the holiday of the labor day , i want to go to shanghai to check about the place that i will take the toeic test although i haven't made up my mind yet . and i really appreciate that the guy understands me and doesn't blame me for changing so fast ~ life is just like the chocolate in the box , you'll never know what will you get . so the plan may be useless cause at last you just throw it away , and do what shoud do at that moment -- you have little time to think about it , that maybe the most natural way . plan can only be a guide .
and i have a chinese blog , and a kind person always leaves me a comment , and i have some imformation about him that he studys in my school and his major is just mine , that means we take classes together , and can see each other every day , but i don't know who he is -- so many boystudents in my major , but i guess he knows me . and i also find that he is not mind whether i know him , and he leaves some words about his busy life , and i don't need to know he actually is . it's pure and easy , but i really want to know . but that may bring an end of the relationship .
some words we don't want to tell the person who we are familier with , it may be awkward ~
then i talked with my friend about my plan on the holiday of the labor day , i want to go to shanghai to check about the place that i will take the toeic test although i haven't made up my mind yet . and i really appreciate that the guy understands me and doesn't blame me for changing so fast ~ life is just like the chocolate in the box , you'll never know what will you get . so the plan may be useless cause at last you just throw it away , and do what shoud do at that moment -- you have little time to think about it , that maybe the most natural way . plan can only be a guide .
and i have a chinese blog , and a kind person always leaves me a comment , and i have some imformation about him that he studys in my school and his major is just mine , that means we take classes together , and can see each other every day , but i don't know who he is -- so many boystudents in my major , but i guess he knows me . and i also find that he is not mind whether i know him , and he leaves some words about his busy life , and i don't need to know he actually is . it's pure and easy , but i really want to know . but that may bring an end of the relationship .
some words we don't want to tell the person who we are familier with , it may be awkward ~
2007年4月7日星期六
busy~~
Friday afternoon , i with my friends went to have an "ask and answer" meeting to check about our reserch . in fack , we really haven't prepared well , so there were some mistakes and the teacher asked us some questions about that , and seemed not so satisfied with us . well , it doesn't matter , and i am not so worried about that , because we are not in the same college , and the teachers would not find me and tell me that my work isn't good enough to pass . but it's worse for my friend , but we really did nothing ...
and then , today , is the exam . i may pass or may fail , i really don't know , and it's really dangerous because the boundary isn't clear .
the afternoon , we have finished the experiment of PLC . and i find that i am not goo at comforting others . she doesn't do well , and at last , she cried , i don't know what to say , i can only try to be sad with her . but i know that it's the result of what did she do before . she didn't do hard , she will say that it's terrible that she has little time , and the experiment hasn't began yet , but at the same time , she watches tv all the same . but she have work out but something's wrong with her programm , so it's really sorry for her ~
well , what can i do to comfort her ? why i am strict with her and others ? i am not good at getting along with persons well , i always keep a distance with all people that i know , there is no true emotion of me , probably .
and then , today , is the exam . i may pass or may fail , i really don't know , and it's really dangerous because the boundary isn't clear .
the afternoon , we have finished the experiment of PLC . and i find that i am not goo at comforting others . she doesn't do well , and at last , she cried , i don't know what to say , i can only try to be sad with her . but i know that it's the result of what did she do before . she didn't do hard , she will say that it's terrible that she has little time , and the experiment hasn't began yet , but at the same time , she watches tv all the same . but she have work out but something's wrong with her programm , so it's really sorry for her ~
well , what can i do to comfort her ? why i am strict with her and others ? i am not good at getting along with persons well , i always keep a distance with all people that i know , there is no true emotion of me , probably .
2007年4月4日星期三
busy weekend
it's Thursday , today . and i have a lot to do in the weekend . first , take the exam of the computer , then , do the experiment of PLC , and the next day , have the test of programming on the computer . and , tomorrow , i have to finish the reserch with my classmates , but i have no idea what we shall do , cause all is done by him .
now , i am prepaing for my exam . i regret that i have pay the money to take the exam , it's useless for me , and i don't prepare well , if i fail , the money will be wasted -- i don't like that happen , and then , i am sorry for what i did in my winter vocation . so now , i have the only choice -- hold every moment to learn , to prepare . if i really can not pass it , at least i have tried , and that would be enough -- i think that will be the words from my father , it's kind of words to teach the child ...
just try my best~
now , i am prepaing for my exam . i regret that i have pay the money to take the exam , it's useless for me , and i don't prepare well , if i fail , the money will be wasted -- i don't like that happen , and then , i am sorry for what i did in my winter vocation . so now , i have the only choice -- hold every moment to learn , to prepare . if i really can not pass it , at least i have tried , and that would be enough -- i think that will be the words from my father , it's kind of words to teach the child ...
just try my best~
2007年4月2日星期一
sleep, now
it's late again , and i want to say a few words ,anyway .
Dad said he might come this week , and Mum wants Dad to bring me something , and she said that all was fine , and i have to learn to take good care of myself when she is not around me . well , it's just ok only if you are used to it .
i'm practising programming C , it's difficult ,and i have forgotten all i have learned ever , so just start to learn again , and i am trying ~
it's a busy week ~
Dad said he might come this week , and Mum wants Dad to bring me something , and she said that all was fine , and i have to learn to take good care of myself when she is not around me . well , it's just ok only if you are used to it .
i'm practising programming C , it's difficult ,and i have forgotten all i have learned ever , so just start to learn again , and i am trying ~
it's a busy week ~
2007年4月1日星期日
worry about
at this time , we all worry about our future--job , exam , abroad ... and i just talked with Dad for a while -- we haven't been in touch with each other for a long time , maybe that's why i find i don't want to talk about the future stuff with him . and he is just like he used to be , askes me to prepare for the exam , and says he's worried about me very much . i don't want my parents to worry so much , i have been an adult , and i have to take charge of my own actions , and i don't want him to guide me totally . i just hang up the phone , and feel a little sorry to say such cool words to him .
then , i think about one of my roommates . she seems never know what she will do in the future , and have no plan . but , she seems to know a lot about any area sometimes when we talked casually. i think the worst part of her character is that she is too lazy and can't restrict herself from watching entertainmens , like tv shows , movies -- she just have looked a lot during all most all her daytime , and she also goes to bed very late every night .
but we have no right to judge her because she is a grown-up , and it's not appropriate for us to do this . cause she doesn't seem like to let other know that she has failed some lessons and doesn't try hard to make it up . maybe she doesn't adapt to the major , but at least , you have to graduate first .
but tomorrow can't be forecasted , just wish you good luck anyway , and lead a happy life ~
then , i think about one of my roommates . she seems never know what she will do in the future , and have no plan . but , she seems to know a lot about any area sometimes when we talked casually. i think the worst part of her character is that she is too lazy and can't restrict herself from watching entertainmens , like tv shows , movies -- she just have looked a lot during all most all her daytime , and she also goes to bed very late every night .
but we have no right to judge her because she is a grown-up , and it's not appropriate for us to do this . cause she doesn't seem like to let other know that she has failed some lessons and doesn't try hard to make it up . maybe she doesn't adapt to the major , but at least , you have to graduate first .
but tomorrow can't be forecasted , just wish you good luck anyway , and lead a happy life ~
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