wondering

i'm wondering what to do , what i can do well , and which way should i take .

my friend just want to go abroad a little more than taking the exam . she thinks about that clearly , first , she doesn't want to prepare for so long time to take the exam , it's exhausted . secondly , she is not sure to find a good job , and going abroad can help her -- after all , she's coming from abroad , and she can do better in the woking market . third , her parents have this kind of thoughts . then why she is still not sure what to do , although she's a gril who always be affected only by her own thought . there will be the emotional problems . her boyfriend doesn't study in a good school , and his future road will be narrower and tougher than her . but he is a man , he will take a heavy burden . and it's difficult for them to be together at last . marriage is a very realistic thing . but what stun me is that she doesn't care about her boyfriend will be a lower level of life than her , she just likes him , and really doesn't want to broke up with him . she want to stick to him and help him . so she just can't go abroad for a very long time when he is start his career .

so , what about me ?
i'm so glad that i don't have this kind of person that i must care about , and can not leave him behind . but , i have my own problems . i'm considering my parents , and i'm not confident to find a better job after studying abroad . i'm afraid that it will be very hard to graduat from the school , and i will spend much money . i want my dad to buy him a car , and i want my parents to keep our house , and have a affluent and happy life .

the marks of the graduate students entering exam is shown , today . and some do a very good job , and some are not . so ,what is it mean by a very short exam ? i just live in a world full of exams , and many kinds of certification . it's a world filled with lots lots lots people . i'm just a little tiny ant .