terrible

it's a busy day , and i do the experiment this evening , but i just feel tired , and don't do well .

when i feel busy and tired and have no time to relax , i really want to slow down the pace and find some fun . but when i'm in a comfortable and easy conditon , i will try my best to do some interesting things , maybe only staring at the screen .

my roommate seems to try her best to prepare for going abroad . maybe i don't want to reconcile to the reality , and i always think about what will happen if i choose the other choice , and it is bothering me all the time .

or , i can try to list a list , one side is the good part of going abroad , finding a job , furthering my study , the other side is the bad part , and i can find what is the pivotal problem , and which side do i incline . but it isn't the stuff that can be weighed by a number , and anything can happen in the future .

life is full of changes .