learn more all the time

it's been for quite a long time since the last time i called my dad , so i ask him to call back , but then i realize that i've made a mistake .

the conversation between he and me just makes me feel sorry but pretend to be strong again and again . i think he requires too much , and all with the high standard . i know , i understand he concerns me , but at this time , it's just not the thing i want . i want a guide , a person who i trust to tell me what is my future , and which road shall i take for my future life's pursuit . it's a hard question , and if someone tells me that , i will also suspect that . but he just doesn't know me well , he never has the idea of complimenting me , but always says that i need to try even harder , and always thinks that i have a lot of time , i must and should learn anything at anytime in any place . i know , i get to know that he cares about me and is worried about my future . and i agree that i should learn many things , and don't waste any of my time . but it's the big problem when you live in "now" , how can you hold every moment that passes away quickly , and how can you never be regret for what you have done earlier . the great man is just doing well , but me , i need to grow up , i need time , i need to get the spirit of life , the self-improving , about love -- anything . i'm really too young .

then i am in a bad mood , the homework is complicated , and not so easy to answer . i want to get through the book carefully first , but it seems to be late . i should go to learn something , don't think that it is usless and don't care too much about what others' thoughts or something else , what you get , are all treasures .

well , this night is going away , and i'm down , and i regret again .