the future

i attend a course of lecture about the exam to become a graduate sutdent . we just face some choices , like going abroad , finding a job , and taking the exam . but which one is the best for me , no one knows , neither me .

about going abroad , i've never thought about that , because i think it is need too much money , and i'm not confident of my english . anyway , it really costs a lot . my parents don't have so much money , although they have the ability to send me abroad . i don't want to spend them too much , cause i've been a adult now , and i don't want them to lead a simple and thrifty life , they should enjoy their life now , for working hard for so long time .

i'm shaking my mind between finding a job and taking the exam . i don't know which one is better for me . and which major shall i take in the future . i'm confused . and i'm tired about thinking about these kind of things .

but , i'm sure that , i need time to prepare for a job , and i want to meet more people and have more things to deal with , and i mustn't waste my time anymore . i must be sure about my goal , my future and make a good habit . but , the worst is that , i just like a child without responsibility and always do things in the last minute .

i must change myself , so , i need time .
and , i can also do that right now .