after being so hot for about 3-4 days , it rains right now , and that means it will be cool tomorrow ! well done!
and it's April fool's day . and i think it's just a very usual day for me cause i haven't been deceived badly in that day . maybe i'm not good at joking , well .
i'm so happy that i have finished the programming of plc , and i don't expect for a big praise from the teacher , i just find i like to do this kind of work , it's funny and not so difficult . if i finish one problem , i will have the confidence to finish the next , it's a kind of achievement that to prove my ability .
but , well , next week will be a very busy and tough time , come on !~try my best~
2007年3月31日星期六
2007年3月30日星期五
the weather
i want to say something about the weather in hangzhou , cause i've stand it too much ...
the temperature is amazingly high in these days , but , it's only March . what can i say ? and what's wrong ? i can't believe that ! it's hot and dry today but maybe cold tomorrow . it isn't appropraite to put on summer wear ,that may feel cold in the night . but if you don't , you will probably be crazy in the middle of the day .
it's weary , and odd .
the summer here is long and hot , the spring is short , maybe the best time is autumn , and the winter is just ok if it doesn't rain .
well , it's just awful to live here , and i really miss my hometown , may be a little better . but why?all the people will say that hangzhou is the paradise . but i just hate the weahter here . the friends in hangzhou say that it didn't like this since the year when they prepared for the exam of entering the college .
yes , i can remember , too , it's a very terrible summer , and the electricity is limited , and was cut for reduce the use of the power , and we even lit a candle to study .
it is said that the weather will turn to be cold again in a few days ~~
please , be normal~~
the temperature is amazingly high in these days , but , it's only March . what can i say ? and what's wrong ? i can't believe that ! it's hot and dry today but maybe cold tomorrow . it isn't appropraite to put on summer wear ,that may feel cold in the night . but if you don't , you will probably be crazy in the middle of the day .
it's weary , and odd .
the summer here is long and hot , the spring is short , maybe the best time is autumn , and the winter is just ok if it doesn't rain .
well , it's just awful to live here , and i really miss my hometown , may be a little better . but why?all the people will say that hangzhou is the paradise . but i just hate the weahter here . the friends in hangzhou say that it didn't like this since the year when they prepared for the exam of entering the college .
yes , i can remember , too , it's a very terrible summer , and the electricity is limited , and was cut for reduce the use of the power , and we even lit a candle to study .
it is said that the weather will turn to be cold again in a few days ~~
please , be normal~~
2007年3月28日星期三
pretending
it's a funny thing , and i feel very strange at that time .
at first , i'm waiting outside of the classroom . some students' leaving , and the next class in the room is our lesson . and i talk with a gril about the programe i made last night . and at that time , i think about the guy i know, he maybe is taking class in that room , and maybe he would go out and see me .
then i try not to notice that , and go on talking with my friend . suddenly , i feel something hit my face , i don't know what happen , and see around , everybody's going and coming , no one is looking at me . and i also see the guy's walking away , without looking back . i tell my friend that somebody's hitting me , and she seems know nothing about that . and i can only give me the conclusion that it is an illusion . then , go to the room , be ready for the class .
at least , he sends me the message and tells me what he has done . then, i suddenly find out what really happened . but i don't know how he hit me by my face , it makes me feel so strange and he's pretending well and escaping my noticing and suspecting ...
bad boy...
at first , i'm waiting outside of the classroom . some students' leaving , and the next class in the room is our lesson . and i talk with a gril about the programe i made last night . and at that time , i think about the guy i know, he maybe is taking class in that room , and maybe he would go out and see me .
then i try not to notice that , and go on talking with my friend . suddenly , i feel something hit my face , i don't know what happen , and see around , everybody's going and coming , no one is looking at me . and i also see the guy's walking away , without looking back . i tell my friend that somebody's hitting me , and she seems know nothing about that . and i can only give me the conclusion that it is an illusion . then , go to the room , be ready for the class .
at least , he sends me the message and tells me what he has done . then, i suddenly find out what really happened . but i don't know how he hit me by my face , it makes me feel so strange and he's pretending well and escaping my noticing and suspecting ...
bad boy...
2007年3月27日星期二
busy
i feel busy suddenly .
maybe i won't be able to update my blog everyday . if i stop doing this , the habit will never be a habit , and i will update it even more slowly .
count about all the stuff that i have to finished recently . the homework--troublesome , the experiment--difficult , the computer test--haven't prepared yet , the exam--coming soon . next 2-4 weeks will be a very busy and tough time .
and at the same time , the day's getting longer , so i always wake up earlier in the morning , and is tired all day , but i still go to bed late , oh , not a good time .
and i make a decision to take the toeic test today , cause it will make some changes and the exam will become more difficult or maybe more expensive .
go to bed early ~~
come on !~
maybe i won't be able to update my blog everyday . if i stop doing this , the habit will never be a habit , and i will update it even more slowly .
count about all the stuff that i have to finished recently . the homework--troublesome , the experiment--difficult , the computer test--haven't prepared yet , the exam--coming soon . next 2-4 weeks will be a very busy and tough time .
and at the same time , the day's getting longer , so i always wake up earlier in the morning , and is tired all day , but i still go to bed late , oh , not a good time .
and i make a decision to take the toeic test today , cause it will make some changes and the exam will become more difficult or maybe more expensive .
go to bed early ~~
come on !~
2007年3月26日星期一
i've been used to it
it's all the same , no one's coming to leave me a comment , it's a usual time , i don't need to be surprised , well , just a little disappointed .
my friends don't know this blog , cause i have another blog that i always leave some words there , but the hit is not so often , too -- the only reason is that my friends are all lazy and don't have the habit to update their blogs neither to have a look at mine . i've been used to it for a long time ,anyway .
but i check about my blog every day , maybe sometimes find nothing's there , but it's just a habit that i want to have a surprise .
a little sleepy now . i woke up early in the morning , maybe 6:30 , it's terrible ! the sleeping time must be guaranteed . maybe it's because it gets warmer and dawn comes earlier .
now, it's raining , well , it's spring , right?
my friends don't know this blog , cause i have another blog that i always leave some words there , but the hit is not so often , too -- the only reason is that my friends are all lazy and don't have the habit to update their blogs neither to have a look at mine . i've been used to it for a long time ,anyway .
but i check about my blog every day , maybe sometimes find nothing's there , but it's just a habit that i want to have a surprise .
a little sleepy now . i woke up early in the morning , maybe 6:30 , it's terrible ! the sleeping time must be guaranteed . maybe it's because it gets warmer and dawn comes earlier .
now, it's raining , well , it's spring , right?
2007年3月25日星期日
happy day
i feel happy now, really .
early this morning , we go back to the campus where i spent my first two years of my college life .and we will have to do an experiment about PLC. i didn't have a good sleep last night , but i feel a little excited to take the bus and go to see what the campus like now . it changes a little , and the students there seems younger and more passionate .
i call my old friends and have lunch with them . i have a feeling that it is not like to have an experiment but to make a travelle . but their coldness makes me a little uncomfortable -- after having the lunch , only by saying"i'll go", then leave right away . i've thought about might they can send to the classroom . but that's find , i'm used to it , to the fact that no one will treat me wonderfully except my parents until now .
but that's fine . i'm still excited . go back to the lab room , and look at the computer screen and and see what i can do . the program is not so difficult , but the act of the figure is hard to control , and that's the point . but i think it is really funny ,and the cartoon is so lovely .
then go back to my flat . i am still puzzled by the problem of the program , and i set up the prosessing in my own computer and try to make it work correctly . i've almost finished the program , but it's still have a little faulty . but i am satisfied with myself -- so i'm happy now.
maybe that's just the accomplishment , makes me feel content , and confidenct to do better .
it's a meaningful day that i find a way to be happy , although a little tired .
early this morning , we go back to the campus where i spent my first two years of my college life .and we will have to do an experiment about PLC. i didn't have a good sleep last night , but i feel a little excited to take the bus and go to see what the campus like now . it changes a little , and the students there seems younger and more passionate .
i call my old friends and have lunch with them . i have a feeling that it is not like to have an experiment but to make a travelle . but their coldness makes me a little uncomfortable -- after having the lunch , only by saying"i'll go", then leave right away . i've thought about might they can send to the classroom . but that's find , i'm used to it , to the fact that no one will treat me wonderfully except my parents until now .
but that's fine . i'm still excited . go back to the lab room , and look at the computer screen and and see what i can do . the program is not so difficult , but the act of the figure is hard to control , and that's the point . but i think it is really funny ,and the cartoon is so lovely .
then go back to my flat . i am still puzzled by the problem of the program , and i set up the prosessing in my own computer and try to make it work correctly . i've almost finished the program , but it's still have a little faulty . but i am satisfied with myself -- so i'm happy now.
maybe that's just the accomplishment , makes me feel content , and confidenct to do better .
it's a meaningful day that i find a way to be happy , although a little tired .
2007年3月24日星期六
that's fine
last night, chatted with a friend , talked about her and her boyfriend , both of them are my classmates in my senior middle school . i always think that they are meant to be together , it's perfect . she is lovely but don't have a peaceful mind , always thinking about something else . and he is stable and knowing how to care about others . they can repair the defect on the other . and they just keep in a very good relationship right now .
but she told me that sometimes she felt sorry for him , cause she couldn't forget about someone else . but when she got in trouble , she would turn to her boyfriend , although they were far away from each other . deep in her heart , she just can't put it down , the missing and the pursuing to the people who doesn't like her , and has his grilfriend , now . it's confusing about them , and just let them go , i can never help them .
when one is getting in the trouble of love , all seems unconditional . may be happy , may be sad . all you have to do is thinking about the other one , it's selflessness .
well , it's been a long time to go .
but she told me that sometimes she felt sorry for him , cause she couldn't forget about someone else . but when she got in trouble , she would turn to her boyfriend , although they were far away from each other . deep in her heart , she just can't put it down , the missing and the pursuing to the people who doesn't like her , and has his grilfriend , now . it's confusing about them , and just let them go , i can never help them .
when one is getting in the trouble of love , all seems unconditional . may be happy , may be sad . all you have to do is thinking about the other one , it's selflessness .
well , it's been a long time to go .
2007年3月22日星期四
do exactly
i always try to make a plan , and try even harder to do exactly according to it . but i fail again and again , especially when i look at the computer screen . i can't make a good use of the computer , and i know how useful it is , but , well, i'm only attracted by the movie , the music , the news on the net .
i can't live without computer , or maybe to me , it's only a tool for entertainment . it's unworthy , really .
i see something in one's blog that "man should stick to completing a thing as long as it's started" . today's work must be finished today , so you can make a room for other things that you are interested in .
well , all the principles are clear to everybody , but who can take the initiative ? it's just the main difference between people .
i have a lot things to do , but time is limited , so make hay while the sun shines !
i can't live without computer , or maybe to me , it's only a tool for entertainment . it's unworthy , really .
i see something in one's blog that "man should stick to completing a thing as long as it's started" . today's work must be finished today , so you can make a room for other things that you are interested in .
well , all the principles are clear to everybody , but who can take the initiative ? it's just the main difference between people .
i have a lot things to do , but time is limited , so make hay while the sun shines !
dream
what would we do when we fall in sleep . all will say that sleep is very important to a person , if you have a good sleep , you'll be energetic and efficient in the day-time . otherwise , you'll feel depression and even in a bad mood .
when i study in the school , and have a very regulary life , i will always have a good sleep , except for the time when i have the exam . maybe i'm too nervous to sleep well at that time , but it's not a big deal . it means that i will go back home right away , and have a big hug with my large and soft bed -- wonderful .
now , i'm in the school , and can get to sleep quickly when i lie down on the bed . well , last night , i was woke up for a few minutes by my roommate's drool , clearly and ringingly , but i can't remeber what it is in the morning . i'm sure that i heard that , and all my other roommates heard , too . but we all fell to sleep again when she was quiet . it's funny that she just says something ridiculous that maybe is her secret . and we talk about her drool . she sometimes say that and is not a strange thing , so we only feel that is really funny . actually , her sleepness may not be good , and she maybe is too tired that even in the dream , she thinks about something , and does something that she wants to be finished , maybe .
i have ever came through a dream that made me cry in the dream . i can remember the main part of that . my mom's leaving me , and i'm crying and begging , and i just do that although it is a dream -- i cry in the dream . it's sorrowful , and it seems so real , that i'm scaried . yes , in my deep heart , it is the most terrible experience for me .
i talked about the drool with my friend . she also told me that her roommate was crying in her dream , and all of them were frightened and woke her up . it's a dream , only a dream . but life is so hard that you even can not take a rest in your dream , that pretty few hours .
take care of yourself .
when i study in the school , and have a very regulary life , i will always have a good sleep , except for the time when i have the exam . maybe i'm too nervous to sleep well at that time , but it's not a big deal . it means that i will go back home right away , and have a big hug with my large and soft bed -- wonderful .
now , i'm in the school , and can get to sleep quickly when i lie down on the bed . well , last night , i was woke up for a few minutes by my roommate's drool , clearly and ringingly , but i can't remeber what it is in the morning . i'm sure that i heard that , and all my other roommates heard , too . but we all fell to sleep again when she was quiet . it's funny that she just says something ridiculous that maybe is her secret . and we talk about her drool . she sometimes say that and is not a strange thing , so we only feel that is really funny . actually , her sleepness may not be good , and she maybe is too tired that even in the dream , she thinks about something , and does something that she wants to be finished , maybe .
i have ever came through a dream that made me cry in the dream . i can remember the main part of that . my mom's leaving me , and i'm crying and begging , and i just do that although it is a dream -- i cry in the dream . it's sorrowful , and it seems so real , that i'm scaried . yes , in my deep heart , it is the most terrible experience for me .
i talked about the drool with my friend . she also told me that her roommate was crying in her dream , and all of them were frightened and woke her up . it's a dream , only a dream . but life is so hard that you even can not take a rest in your dream , that pretty few hours .
take care of yourself .
2007年3月21日星期三
a few words
i will only say a few words...
the homework of the modern theory of control is disgusting , many questions , and complicated calculation . it's just not necessary , i understand the theory and do some homework to master it , that's enough -- no need to make me in to a deep circulation of working it out again and again .
and the network of the school is bad -- i can hardly download a song -- about 2M . i feel desperated . how can you do that to me !
maybe take a shower and have a good sleep will hepl me .
my friend went to meet a teacher from Manchester university , and talked with her , and got to know something about the school . it's a kind of exercise to communicate with a foreigner . and i feel like taking the toeic test much more ...
the homework of the modern theory of control is disgusting , many questions , and complicated calculation . it's just not necessary , i understand the theory and do some homework to master it , that's enough -- no need to make me in to a deep circulation of working it out again and again .
and the network of the school is bad -- i can hardly download a song -- about 2M . i feel desperated . how can you do that to me !
maybe take a shower and have a good sleep will hepl me .
my friend went to meet a teacher from Manchester university , and talked with her , and got to know something about the school . it's a kind of exercise to communicate with a foreigner . and i feel like taking the toeic test much more ...
2007年3月20日星期二
final destination
this is a movie -- final destination , and it is about something that is destinated .
the students decided to go to France to travel around . when they got on the plane , one of the students had a very strange feeling . and he experienced a very terrible dream that the plane exploded and all of the passagers died , including himself . it was so real that when he woke up he is wetted by sweat . and then something happened that is just true in his dream . so he claimed up :" the plane's going to explod ..." and he got down of the plane , and followed a few students who is angry with him or who is believe in him , and a teacher . he was scared , and others didn't understand him . but just a few minutes after the plane taking off , it exploded . everyone was shocked .
then , they felt a little luck besides feeling sorry to the dead . and leading a life is not so easy , really , there may be many accidents happen everyday . but then , the people who survive during the disaster , died one by one all by accident -- strange . and the boy found the rule of the people who is going to die next , and he tried his best to save friends . in the end of the moive , three of them were survival , and reunioned in France , after 6 months . and they thought that it was the end of all this queer experiences . but , a bus came and ran down one of them -- it's another turn .
well , it's all about destination . it is said that the deathe is designed at the first , it's just your time , and if you escape that , you have to pay for the next time -- it's only the problem that when it comes , when is the end of one's whole life . thinking about that , life is fragile , you never know when it stops , and you can never escape once again -- so , it is so lucky that we are alive , and do whatever we want to do , well , hold it tightly .
the students decided to go to France to travel around . when they got on the plane , one of the students had a very strange feeling . and he experienced a very terrible dream that the plane exploded and all of the passagers died , including himself . it was so real that when he woke up he is wetted by sweat . and then something happened that is just true in his dream . so he claimed up :" the plane's going to explod ..." and he got down of the plane , and followed a few students who is angry with him or who is believe in him , and a teacher . he was scared , and others didn't understand him . but just a few minutes after the plane taking off , it exploded . everyone was shocked .
then , they felt a little luck besides feeling sorry to the dead . and leading a life is not so easy , really , there may be many accidents happen everyday . but then , the people who survive during the disaster , died one by one all by accident -- strange . and the boy found the rule of the people who is going to die next , and he tried his best to save friends . in the end of the moive , three of them were survival , and reunioned in France , after 6 months . and they thought that it was the end of all this queer experiences . but , a bus came and ran down one of them -- it's another turn .
well , it's all about destination . it is said that the deathe is designed at the first , it's just your time , and if you escape that , you have to pay for the next time -- it's only the problem that when it comes , when is the end of one's whole life . thinking about that , life is fragile , you never know when it stops , and you can never escape once again -- so , it is so lucky that we are alive , and do whatever we want to do , well , hold it tightly .
2007年3月19日星期一
substantial day
it's full of lessons today -- 8 classes , from 8 am till 3 pm , and have a experiment tonight , too . i do my homework right after i take the lessons -- i have to catch every minutes . but i haven't learn english for a long time , and i read some information about the toeic text , i find that it seems not so difficult -- i only get to know the listening part , but my friend told me that it wasn't that easy as i thought , the reading part is really hard -- it just crushed out my confidence to take this exam , but i think i will try . is that will be helpful if i want to find a good job ? i'm not sure . but i have to improve my english by the only way to take an english exam .
it's late , again ...
everyday's life is just the same , what can i do to make it different ...
my roommate seems have reconciled with her boyfriend -- she never says about that , but i can see that from her behavior , that can never tell lies .
be happy and passionate everyday !
it's late , again ...
everyday's life is just the same , what can i do to make it different ...
my roommate seems have reconciled with her boyfriend -- she never says about that , but i can see that from her behavior , that can never tell lies .
be happy and passionate everyday !
2007年3月18日星期日
study...
i have the plan to study today . to my surprise , one of my old classmates came to see us -- she've just taken an exam near our school , and she said it was really bad , since i have ever heard about that , i only comforted her that she may have another try .
then , we talked about the future plan -- it seems inevitable at this moment . she wants to further her study in our school -- a little difficult , really . but when i find that she is quite ambitious , i feel that i can't give away , either . i have to , try my best , to complete something ideally .
but the first thing i have to do is hold "now" tightly .
i find that i really like the band -- hoobastank , it's passionate , it's gentle , soulful ... i am attracted deeply .
but i have to sleep now , and get up early tomorrow ...
then , we talked about the future plan -- it seems inevitable at this moment . she wants to further her study in our school -- a little difficult , really . but when i find that she is quite ambitious , i feel that i can't give away , either . i have to , try my best , to complete something ideally .
but the first thing i have to do is hold "now" tightly .
i find that i really like the band -- hoobastank , it's passionate , it's gentle , soulful ... i am attracted deeply .
but i have to sleep now , and get up early tomorrow ...
2007年3月17日星期六
your goal
last night , i talked with someone , and asked him his future plan . he said he was not sure , maybe found a job . he didn't want to prepare for half a year to take the exam . and i agreed that , taking the exam to be a graduate student is really the worst choice between all , but the easiest way to make up your mind -- don't need to think about anything else , just study , and do exercises . or maybe i underestimate the exam -- it's difficult , so many people's there , trying hard . on the other hand , i'm not able to find a good job -- in a big company , given a good salary , and promoted myself -- i just imagine that .
so i want to learn ielts , many good company wants this kind of certification of english , and maybe i can have more opportunities , and or maybe i'm lucky -- i only dream that .
i have to be strong , intelligent , confident -- all the good words to describe a great person . and i also need to meet a lot of people , and get to know them , and learn from them -- all the success people will do that , maybe . but they really do , and now , i only think about that . that's the difference -- deadly .
well , just hold the very moment i have , do something good , improve myself ... i have to do this !
so i want to learn ielts , many good company wants this kind of certification of english , and maybe i can have more opportunities , and or maybe i'm lucky -- i only dream that .
i have to be strong , intelligent , confident -- all the good words to describe a great person . and i also need to meet a lot of people , and get to know them , and learn from them -- all the success people will do that , maybe . but they really do , and now , i only think about that . that's the difference -- deadly .
well , just hold the very moment i have , do something good , improve myself ... i have to do this !
2007年3月16日星期五
the love in the school
it's rainy and cold all these days , and since it's weekend now , i have only a few lessons . i don't want to go to have dinner , cause it means that i have to wash the dishes -- it's cold , right ? i only buy something back . when i'm on the road back , the wind blows , and the rain goes everywhere , and the umbrella is of no use . i see some couples holding tightly and walking under the small umbrella , i just feel a little down -- that's true , when you have problems , you want someone's there to share your sorrow and give you support , and be with you when you get through tough time , but i am alone now . i send a message to my friends who are still single like me :" do be strong when you are alone !"
last night , one of my roommates cried in the bathroom . we had found that she was in a bad moon the whole day , but we never thought about she would broke up with her boyfriend . and the boy asked that . i had no idea how to comfort her , only listened to them talking about the relationship , the life between them . when you have someone's there for you , it will be the two people's life , not only yours . there will be misunderstanding , anger , and something like that , but maybe , someone is really meant to be , then who is that ?
we comfort her , and see what happened between them , and analyse what kind a person she and her boyfriend are , and when they come together , what is the contradiction , and what makes them can't be aparted when they "broke up" for quite a few times . i listen to them talking , and learn a lot about geting along with others , especially the one who you will share everything with .
i've done some homework this afternoon , then , in the evening i relax for so long time , see some sitcoms , and now it's all late again ...
last night , one of my roommates cried in the bathroom . we had found that she was in a bad moon the whole day , but we never thought about she would broke up with her boyfriend . and the boy asked that . i had no idea how to comfort her , only listened to them talking about the relationship , the life between them . when you have someone's there for you , it will be the two people's life , not only yours . there will be misunderstanding , anger , and something like that , but maybe , someone is really meant to be , then who is that ?
we comfort her , and see what happened between them , and analyse what kind a person she and her boyfriend are , and when they come together , what is the contradiction , and what makes them can't be aparted when they "broke up" for quite a few times . i listen to them talking , and learn a lot about geting along with others , especially the one who you will share everything with .
i've done some homework this afternoon , then , in the evening i relax for so long time , see some sitcoms , and now it's all late again ...
2007年3月15日星期四
learn more all the time
it's been for quite a long time since the last time i called my dad , so i ask him to call back , but then i realize that i've made a mistake .
the conversation between he and me just makes me feel sorry but pretend to be strong again and again . i think he requires too much , and all with the high standard . i know , i understand he concerns me , but at this time , it's just not the thing i want . i want a guide , a person who i trust to tell me what is my future , and which road shall i take for my future life's pursuit . it's a hard question , and if someone tells me that , i will also suspect that . but he just doesn't know me well , he never has the idea of complimenting me , but always says that i need to try even harder , and always thinks that i have a lot of time , i must and should learn anything at anytime in any place . i know , i get to know that he cares about me and is worried about my future . and i agree that i should learn many things , and don't waste any of my time . but it's the big problem when you live in "now" , how can you hold every moment that passes away quickly , and how can you never be regret for what you have done earlier . the great man is just doing well , but me , i need to grow up , i need time , i need to get the spirit of life , the self-improving , about love -- anything . i'm really too young .
then i am in a bad mood , the homework is complicated , and not so easy to answer . i want to get through the book carefully first , but it seems to be late . i should go to learn something , don't think that it is usless and don't care too much about what others' thoughts or something else , what you get , are all treasures .
well , this night is going away , and i'm down , and i regret again .
the conversation between he and me just makes me feel sorry but pretend to be strong again and again . i think he requires too much , and all with the high standard . i know , i understand he concerns me , but at this time , it's just not the thing i want . i want a guide , a person who i trust to tell me what is my future , and which road shall i take for my future life's pursuit . it's a hard question , and if someone tells me that , i will also suspect that . but he just doesn't know me well , he never has the idea of complimenting me , but always says that i need to try even harder , and always thinks that i have a lot of time , i must and should learn anything at anytime in any place . i know , i get to know that he cares about me and is worried about my future . and i agree that i should learn many things , and don't waste any of my time . but it's the big problem when you live in "now" , how can you hold every moment that passes away quickly , and how can you never be regret for what you have done earlier . the great man is just doing well , but me , i need to grow up , i need time , i need to get the spirit of life , the self-improving , about love -- anything . i'm really too young .
then i am in a bad mood , the homework is complicated , and not so easy to answer . i want to get through the book carefully first , but it seems to be late . i should go to learn something , don't think that it is usless and don't care too much about what others' thoughts or something else , what you get , are all treasures .
well , this night is going away , and i'm down , and i regret again .
2007年3月14日星期三
regret again
i haven't finished my homework , and i didn't spend some time to study, neither . i'm a little headache , and seeing some sitcoms makes me feel better . and it is a cold and rainy day , and wet all around , well , bed time !
and then , i find we made a huge mistake when we do the experiment , so the data and the result will absolutely be wrong . and we just fake the data and the report paper , but i haven't started yet , maybe leave it to the end of the week -- it's not right , everyday , you have everyday's work to do , please change a little .
one of my teacher who is very friendly and always welcome the students to ask him questions , and he compliment us for questioning , maybe he don't know what our names are , but he's just happy . i think maybe the teachers in the college are all the nice people , and like to contact with the young students , they are not like the teachers in the senior or the elementary school -- well , it's true that one is totally different from the others when he is rich in knowledge , and he will be soft and peaceful and gentle .
then i want to say something about my roommates . one girl is really beautiful , but she has no boyfriend . i think her situation is not like mine . someone chased her , but her standard is just a little high , but she is nice to everyone , and good at talking . but i'm not like that . i may be cold suddenly to someone , and confused him . and i won't talk too much with whom i don't familier with . and i sometimes will be stupid , and don't like me in the regular time, and that shocks many people .
well , the point i want to say is , she doesn't do good in her study . so , i'm surprised to see she's doing her homework all the night . then check what i'm doing ...
then only for relaxation...
and then , i find we made a huge mistake when we do the experiment , so the data and the result will absolutely be wrong . and we just fake the data and the report paper , but i haven't started yet , maybe leave it to the end of the week -- it's not right , everyday , you have everyday's work to do , please change a little .
one of my teacher who is very friendly and always welcome the students to ask him questions , and he compliment us for questioning , maybe he don't know what our names are , but he's just happy . i think maybe the teachers in the college are all the nice people , and like to contact with the young students , they are not like the teachers in the senior or the elementary school -- well , it's true that one is totally different from the others when he is rich in knowledge , and he will be soft and peaceful and gentle .
then i want to say something about my roommates . one girl is really beautiful , but she has no boyfriend . i think her situation is not like mine . someone chased her , but her standard is just a little high , but she is nice to everyone , and good at talking . but i'm not like that . i may be cold suddenly to someone , and confused him . and i won't talk too much with whom i don't familier with . and i sometimes will be stupid , and don't like me in the regular time, and that shocks many people .
well , the point i want to say is , she doesn't do good in her study . so , i'm surprised to see she's doing her homework all the night . then check what i'm doing ...
then only for relaxation...
2007年3月13日星期二
a movie
i've just seen the movie--the night at the museum , it's funny , and magical , and i really like it . but it's late now , and i need to go to bed , so , i just say a few words .
everything in the museum will be alive when the night comes because of an incredible golden ban . it's funny that the stone face will say :" my dumdum wants to talk !" the guy become a night guard of the museum cause he don't want to disappoint his son , and he needs a stable job . but it's a unbelievable job and he wants to give it up at the first , but he find it's funny and meaningful to work there , and his son gets to know him , and thinks he is a great dad , and he just is proud of himself . then , every night in the museum , there will be a big party . the people who have died for 2000 years play football with the people in the different time area formally , and the tiny people drive the toy car madly , and also the mummy is amused . they are happy to be together , and the children have fun , too . and it's a nightless museum , wonderful !
and now , i'm going to bed , it's really late ...
everything in the museum will be alive when the night comes because of an incredible golden ban . it's funny that the stone face will say :" my dumdum wants to talk !" the guy become a night guard of the museum cause he don't want to disappoint his son , and he needs a stable job . but it's a unbelievable job and he wants to give it up at the first , but he find it's funny and meaningful to work there , and his son gets to know him , and thinks he is a great dad , and he just is proud of himself . then , every night in the museum , there will be a big party . the people who have died for 2000 years play football with the people in the different time area formally , and the tiny people drive the toy car madly , and also the mummy is amused . they are happy to be together , and the children have fun , too . and it's a nightless museum , wonderful !
and now , i'm going to bed , it's really late ...
2007年3月12日星期一
terrible
it's a busy day , and i do the experiment this evening , but i just feel tired , and don't do well .
when i feel busy and tired and have no time to relax , i really want to slow down the pace and find some fun . but when i'm in a comfortable and easy conditon , i will try my best to do some interesting things , maybe only staring at the screen .
my roommate seems to try her best to prepare for going abroad . maybe i don't want to reconcile to the reality , and i always think about what will happen if i choose the other choice , and it is bothering me all the time .
or , i can try to list a list , one side is the good part of going abroad , finding a job , furthering my study , the other side is the bad part , and i can find what is the pivotal problem , and which side do i incline . but it isn't the stuff that can be weighed by a number , and anything can happen in the future .
life is full of changes .
when i feel busy and tired and have no time to relax , i really want to slow down the pace and find some fun . but when i'm in a comfortable and easy conditon , i will try my best to do some interesting things , maybe only staring at the screen .
my roommate seems to try her best to prepare for going abroad . maybe i don't want to reconcile to the reality , and i always think about what will happen if i choose the other choice , and it is bothering me all the time .
or , i can try to list a list , one side is the good part of going abroad , finding a job , furthering my study , the other side is the bad part , and i can find what is the pivotal problem , and which side do i incline . but it isn't the stuff that can be weighed by a number , and anything can happen in the future .
life is full of changes .
2007年3月11日星期日
cherish every moment
i find the really bad part of wasting time . now , i have to many homework to do , and tomorrow i will have almost the whole day lessons , and in the evening , i have to do an experiment . and i must hand in two classes' homework the day after tomorrow . it's terrible , and i feel guilty .
i go with Yang to meet one of her teacher , a very passionate man , and he's friendly , and always try to encouger us , he say , it won't be difficult if you think it is . he is nice to the girls , and never look down on them . not like some other teachers , thinking that girls are worse than boys in the technical areas . and he's also compliment his student , saying they are all wonderful . someone may not be so outstanding , but he thinks that he is also hase his own potention . he's a good man as far as i know . but when i see he driving an old bike , going away , i just feel sorry . the professors in the school are all very frugal , and they know a lot , but maybe someone lead a very simple life .
maybe nowadays , people are looking too much about money and the substances , and the rank of the society . to be honest , i have the same idea . we learn hard , we work hard , and we try our best to survive in this world , all because that we need to help the people we love to lead a good and comfortable life . but what the limit of human's desire of the "good" condition is different among the people , or we may think about that , how much can satisfy yourself , that all according to you .
i go with Yang to meet one of her teacher , a very passionate man , and he's friendly , and always try to encouger us , he say , it won't be difficult if you think it is . he is nice to the girls , and never look down on them . not like some other teachers , thinking that girls are worse than boys in the technical areas . and he's also compliment his student , saying they are all wonderful . someone may not be so outstanding , but he thinks that he is also hase his own potention . he's a good man as far as i know . but when i see he driving an old bike , going away , i just feel sorry . the professors in the school are all very frugal , and they know a lot , but maybe someone lead a very simple life .
maybe nowadays , people are looking too much about money and the substances , and the rank of the society . to be honest , i have the same idea . we learn hard , we work hard , and we try our best to survive in this world , all because that we need to help the people we love to lead a good and comfortable life . but what the limit of human's desire of the "good" condition is different among the people , or we may think about that , how much can satisfy yourself , that all according to you .
2007年3月10日星期六
make a good habit
i stay in my room for a whole day , and only go out to get some food . i just can't get into the study condition when i am in the room , although there may be nobody can disturb me , but i just can not make my mind be peaceful . listen to the music , see some movies , eat something , and that is all i can do . and time passes quickly , it's time for bed , and the day's goona be over , and i get nothing .
tomorrow , i have to do my homework .
it's really good to make a good habit , the habit to read , to think , to learn -- all the useful stuff , but not play games , not waste time .
i just get contact with the teacher , and he said he will give me one of the SRTP , i can do that with the help of his graduate students . maybe i find the truth , we can do little , only we can do is following others and get the result of their reserch .
i find that one of my roommates is do something very practical , she learns something outside of the class , and seems learn hard and interested in that , i am envying her . she's the one who always say some negative words about study or learning in the school , and i thought that her final goal is marrying to a good husband . but now , i think she's really good . she has a strong ability to learn something new , and can use the knowledges to solve the practical problems . and her english is really amazing . although , i get higher marks than her , actually my capability is weaker cause i never do some "real" thing -- i'm afraid to say that .
and another point is that , i can not control myself from temptation , and some other wonderful people can do this , it's a key element for someone to save time to do some meaningful things or learn more .
i need the chance to improve myself , and i also need to grow up in some areas .
don't let anything , anybody disturb me , and my mind , it's my own , no one can break that .
and of course don't always say but never do .
please do make a good habit !
tomorrow , i have to do my homework .
it's really good to make a good habit , the habit to read , to think , to learn -- all the useful stuff , but not play games , not waste time .
i just get contact with the teacher , and he said he will give me one of the SRTP , i can do that with the help of his graduate students . maybe i find the truth , we can do little , only we can do is following others and get the result of their reserch .
i find that one of my roommates is do something very practical , she learns something outside of the class , and seems learn hard and interested in that , i am envying her . she's the one who always say some negative words about study or learning in the school , and i thought that her final goal is marrying to a good husband . but now , i think she's really good . she has a strong ability to learn something new , and can use the knowledges to solve the practical problems . and her english is really amazing . although , i get higher marks than her , actually my capability is weaker cause i never do some "real" thing -- i'm afraid to say that .
and another point is that , i can not control myself from temptation , and some other wonderful people can do this , it's a key element for someone to save time to do some meaningful things or learn more .
i need the chance to improve myself , and i also need to grow up in some areas .
don't let anything , anybody disturb me , and my mind , it's my own , no one can break that .
and of course don't always say but never do .
please do make a good habit !
2007年3月8日星期四
about going abroad again
it's just late .
if i have this idea earlier , i can have more time to prepare . and to be honesty , going abroad is really the best choice among all the other , except the ones who can find a very good job in a very good and famous company .
someone just advises me to try to take the exam of GRE and TOEFL , and apply the university in the north of america . i just say it's too late . although , going there will get more money if you work hard , but i don't have this kind of confidence that i can get the offer . but if going to the europe , it will be easier , but you have to pay a lot . it's a tough decision .
and also , someone just finds a good job , and gets the passion of working , and is really enjoying his life . it's wonderful ! and i have this idea before , but when dad told me how hard it is to find a good job nowadays , and my wish just disappears , and i have to face the reality .
i will try my best to pass the exam so far , and i also wants to take the IETLS , it seems easier then others . but , if i can be recommended to be a graduate student , that will just be so wonderful , and i will jump to the roof !
god bless me !
if i have this idea earlier , i can have more time to prepare . and to be honesty , going abroad is really the best choice among all the other , except the ones who can find a very good job in a very good and famous company .
someone just advises me to try to take the exam of GRE and TOEFL , and apply the university in the north of america . i just say it's too late . although , going there will get more money if you work hard , but i don't have this kind of confidence that i can get the offer . but if going to the europe , it will be easier , but you have to pay a lot . it's a tough decision .
and also , someone just finds a good job , and gets the passion of working , and is really enjoying his life . it's wonderful ! and i have this idea before , but when dad told me how hard it is to find a good job nowadays , and my wish just disappears , and i have to face the reality .
i will try my best to pass the exam so far , and i also wants to take the IETLS , it seems easier then others . but , if i can be recommended to be a graduate student , that will just be so wonderful , and i will jump to the roof !
god bless me !
2007年3月7日星期三
late
it's all over now .
my friend wnats to go abroad , and she has decided to take the lessons of ielts . i've been for a long time not to think about going abroad , but now , i just can't be sure .
yesterday , she's thinking about some other things and not so sure about that , but today , she seems to have made up her mind to go abroad , and i will be quite sure that she will broke up with her boyfriend . but , she deserves better , really . it is true that the people will be together because they have a lot in common .
so , what about me ? i'm not sure ...
but , i'm a little clined to stay here and take the exam , but it will be tough , really ...
and in another word , i only need time to be a better person , and to find what is the most suitable career to me .
so , please , make up your mind !!
my friend wnats to go abroad , and she has decided to take the lessons of ielts . i've been for a long time not to think about going abroad , but now , i just can't be sure .
yesterday , she's thinking about some other things and not so sure about that , but today , she seems to have made up her mind to go abroad , and i will be quite sure that she will broke up with her boyfriend . but , she deserves better , really . it is true that the people will be together because they have a lot in common .
so , what about me ? i'm not sure ...
but , i'm a little clined to stay here and take the exam , but it will be tough , really ...
and in another word , i only need time to be a better person , and to find what is the most suitable career to me .
so , please , make up your mind !!
2007年3月6日星期二
wondering
i'm wondering what to do , what i can do well , and which way should i take .
my friend just want to go abroad a little more than taking the exam . she thinks about that clearly , first , she doesn't want to prepare for so long time to take the exam , it's exhausted . secondly , she is not sure to find a good job , and going abroad can help her -- after all , she's coming from abroad , and she can do better in the woking market . third , her parents have this kind of thoughts . then why she is still not sure what to do , although she's a gril who always be affected only by her own thought . there will be the emotional problems . her boyfriend doesn't study in a good school , and his future road will be narrower and tougher than her . but he is a man , he will take a heavy burden . and it's difficult for them to be together at last . marriage is a very realistic thing . but what stun me is that she doesn't care about her boyfriend will be a lower level of life than her , she just likes him , and really doesn't want to broke up with him . she want to stick to him and help him . so she just can't go abroad for a very long time when he is start his career .
so , what about me ?
i'm so glad that i don't have this kind of person that i must care about , and can not leave him behind . but , i have my own problems . i'm considering my parents , and i'm not confident to find a better job after studying abroad . i'm afraid that it will be very hard to graduat from the school , and i will spend much money . i want my dad to buy him a car , and i want my parents to keep our house , and have a affluent and happy life .
the marks of the graduate students entering exam is shown , today . and some do a very good job , and some are not . so ,what is it mean by a very short exam ? i just live in a world full of exams , and many kinds of certification . it's a world filled with lots lots lots people . i'm just a little tiny ant .
my friend just want to go abroad a little more than taking the exam . she thinks about that clearly , first , she doesn't want to prepare for so long time to take the exam , it's exhausted . secondly , she is not sure to find a good job , and going abroad can help her -- after all , she's coming from abroad , and she can do better in the woking market . third , her parents have this kind of thoughts . then why she is still not sure what to do , although she's a gril who always be affected only by her own thought . there will be the emotional problems . her boyfriend doesn't study in a good school , and his future road will be narrower and tougher than her . but he is a man , he will take a heavy burden . and it's difficult for them to be together at last . marriage is a very realistic thing . but what stun me is that she doesn't care about her boyfriend will be a lower level of life than her , she just likes him , and really doesn't want to broke up with him . she want to stick to him and help him . so she just can't go abroad for a very long time when he is start his career .
so , what about me ?
i'm so glad that i don't have this kind of person that i must care about , and can not leave him behind . but , i have my own problems . i'm considering my parents , and i'm not confident to find a better job after studying abroad . i'm afraid that it will be very hard to graduat from the school , and i will spend much money . i want my dad to buy him a car , and i want my parents to keep our house , and have a affluent and happy life .
the marks of the graduate students entering exam is shown , today . and some do a very good job , and some are not . so ,what is it mean by a very short exam ? i just live in a world full of exams , and many kinds of certification . it's a world filled with lots lots lots people . i'm just a little tiny ant .
2007年3月5日星期一
the future
i attend a course of lecture about the exam to become a graduate sutdent . we just face some choices , like going abroad , finding a job , and taking the exam . but which one is the best for me , no one knows , neither me .
about going abroad , i've never thought about that , because i think it is need too much money , and i'm not confident of my english . anyway , it really costs a lot . my parents don't have so much money , although they have the ability to send me abroad . i don't want to spend them too much , cause i've been a adult now , and i don't want them to lead a simple and thrifty life , they should enjoy their life now , for working hard for so long time .
i'm shaking my mind between finding a job and taking the exam . i don't know which one is better for me . and which major shall i take in the future . i'm confused . and i'm tired about thinking about these kind of things .
but , i'm sure that , i need time to prepare for a job , and i want to meet more people and have more things to deal with , and i mustn't waste my time anymore . i must be sure about my goal , my future and make a good habit . but , the worst is that , i just like a child without responsibility and always do things in the last minute .
i must change myself , so , i need time .
and , i can also do that right now .
about going abroad , i've never thought about that , because i think it is need too much money , and i'm not confident of my english . anyway , it really costs a lot . my parents don't have so much money , although they have the ability to send me abroad . i don't want to spend them too much , cause i've been a adult now , and i don't want them to lead a simple and thrifty life , they should enjoy their life now , for working hard for so long time .
i'm shaking my mind between finding a job and taking the exam . i don't know which one is better for me . and which major shall i take in the future . i'm confused . and i'm tired about thinking about these kind of things .
but , i'm sure that , i need time to prepare for a job , and i want to meet more people and have more things to deal with , and i mustn't waste my time anymore . i must be sure about my goal , my future and make a good habit . but , the worst is that , i just like a child without responsibility and always do things in the last minute .
i must change myself , so , i need time .
and , i can also do that right now .
2007年3月4日星期日
happy birthday！
it's my birthday , today ! well , anyway , say" happy birthday" to myself .
i attend my classmates' meeting , and the teachers also come . and some ask the questions about going on study or finding a job . we just don't have the strong mind , and are not sure about something , we can only get the information from talking with or hearing from others . so , we don't know how to hold our mind and stick to our own goal . we care too much about what others think or do , and we react according to this kind of information . we are so common people , we can do what the most of us do .
then , i buy a cake and eat with my roommates , and this is how i spend the birthday . it's a little fun , because there are someone with you , and we laugh together , and say some happy things , and forget about the reality and the study and the future .
we just endure so much pressure , but maybe it's the time to become a adult , and to hold on something , and be responsible to myself and my family and my future . so , don't be staleness , we should be passionate and energetic , we are young , and that's all we have .
my birthday wish is that : i can be recommended to be a graduate student ; or , pass the exam to go further my study ; or , find a good job , and happy to work there , and grow up . and then , i want to meet someone . this is the last one , cause i have been used to be alone .
come on !!
i attend my classmates' meeting , and the teachers also come . and some ask the questions about going on study or finding a job . we just don't have the strong mind , and are not sure about something , we can only get the information from talking with or hearing from others . so , we don't know how to hold our mind and stick to our own goal . we care too much about what others think or do , and we react according to this kind of information . we are so common people , we can do what the most of us do .
then , i buy a cake and eat with my roommates , and this is how i spend the birthday . it's a little fun , because there are someone with you , and we laugh together , and say some happy things , and forget about the reality and the study and the future .
we just endure so much pressure , but maybe it's the time to become a adult , and to hold on something , and be responsible to myself and my family and my future . so , don't be staleness , we should be passionate and energetic , we are young , and that's all we have .
my birthday wish is that : i can be recommended to be a graduate student ; or , pass the exam to go further my study ; or , find a good job , and happy to work there , and grow up . and then , i want to meet someone . this is the last one , cause i have been used to be alone .
come on !!
2007年3月3日星期六
chatting
tomorrow , something's gonna happen...
first , we will have a meeting of all my classmates . then , i will know the points of my CET6 , it's important to me , really . and then , it's my birthday . i've ordered a cake for myself--how lone, and two bottles of beer that have the taste of fruit , i like that !
dad asked somebody to send me the stuff that i left home--most are the things to eat . eat less and take more exercises -- then keep fit .
and in the evening , i chat with someone , more than one person . anything about ourselves . i just feel a little tired , listening to the music -- the hoobastank , i find i like to hear their crying , show the feeling of anger , disappointment , helpless ... i want to talk to somebody , i am imagining someone know that tommrrow will be my birthday and say happy to me . but i didn't told many people that , so how does he know ?
i'm just a little unrealistic sometimes , and ask too much , but can give little . it's unfair and then i am alone . but i'm afraid to be with somebody , maybe just thinking about tow much ...
have a good rest , tommorrow , i really want i can pass 460 !!! please !!!!
first , we will have a meeting of all my classmates . then , i will know the points of my CET6 , it's important to me , really . and then , it's my birthday . i've ordered a cake for myself--how lone, and two bottles of beer that have the taste of fruit , i like that !
dad asked somebody to send me the stuff that i left home--most are the things to eat . eat less and take more exercises -- then keep fit .
and in the evening , i chat with someone , more than one person . anything about ourselves . i just feel a little tired , listening to the music -- the hoobastank , i find i like to hear their crying , show the feeling of anger , disappointment , helpless ... i want to talk to somebody , i am imagining someone know that tommrrow will be my birthday and say happy to me . but i didn't told many people that , so how does he know ?
i'm just a little unrealistic sometimes , and ask too much , but can give little . it's unfair and then i am alone . but i'm afraid to be with somebody , maybe just thinking about tow much ...
have a good rest , tommorrow , i really want i can pass 460 !!! please !!!!
2007年3月1日星期四
tendency
i'm sad today , and helpless .
i call the teacher to ask something , she is angry with me and ask me to see the note clearly by myself . then call my dad , he lessons me , too .
i know that i should learn something that i interested , but ,what it is ?
i like music , but i can't be a singer or composer or something else . i am a college student , and my major is automation , but i have no idea about that except taking the lessons .
maybe i've just chosen the wrong major , but it is all late now . what i can do , at this moment ?
no , no complainment ! but , who can help me ?
don't ask for help . life is so hard , please don't bother yourself , be happy at anytime .
come on !
hold on ! i can !!!
i call the teacher to ask something , she is angry with me and ask me to see the note clearly by myself . then call my dad , he lessons me , too .
i know that i should learn something that i interested , but ,what it is ?
i like music , but i can't be a singer or composer or something else . i am a college student , and my major is automation , but i have no idea about that except taking the lessons .
maybe i've just chosen the wrong major , but it is all late now . what i can do , at this moment ?
no , no complainment ! but , who can help me ?
don't ask for help . life is so hard , please don't bother yourself , be happy at anytime .
come on !
hold on ! i can !!!
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