2007年2月28日星期三

reading

"Books are to mankind what memory is to the individual . They contain the history of our race , the discoveries we have made , the accumulated knowledge and experience of ages , they picture for us the marvels and beauties of nature ; help us in our difficulties , comfort us in sorrow and in suffering , change hours of weariness into moments of delight , store our minds with idea , fill them with good and happy thoughts , and lift us out of and above ourselves"
--------Sir John Lubbak

this is a very long sentence of the good point of reading . yes , it really is .

thinking about reading , i feel ashamed that i haven't read a good book for a long time . i'm not a patient people , i can only read through a book very quickly when it is funny or attractive . so i like to read detective stories , and love stories that happens between the youth or in the school , or very funny stories .

since i became a college students , i have bought a very few books , and most of all i haven't finished reading them . what i usually do is surfing the net , or downloading the movie , or listening to the music , but not reading books . that happens only when the end of the term comes , i have to read the text book all day long to prepare my exams .
what a pity !

reading is really good , and i absolutely agree . but i just have passed the period that i could sit down quietly and hold a book .
well , anyway , i'll try . read more , and become smarter .

these days , i'm considering about the SRTP . it's concerned about my recommendation to be the school's graduate student , maybe . but if i have one , it will be safe that i won't lose my competency . but now , i have no idea what to do . . .
oooooooh , who can give my a hand !!!

2007年2月27日星期二

normal life

i'm back , now .

have lessons , take a rest , then , night's coming , so , just go to bed .
it's a normal and regular life . yes , it's just my life .

about study , about the exam , about tomorrow , sometimes , when i think about these things , i feel really tired . i don't need to worry about this now , and i should make up my mind when i decide to do something .

read a book about woman , and find it really makes sense . and i need to think about the character of being a woman , or maybe it's the future things . but , it's a good book .

there are not something special happening everyday , i can only write down a few words , and try my best to show my feeling . but who cares , who cares about me ? all the thing ? well , i just want to write something about me , it makes me feel i am not alone , or it's me that want to be alone .

buy a book about reading , and wish i can richen my vocabulary by using it .
my friend seems have made up her mind to take the exam to become the graduate student .
so , try my best , don't disappoint my parents .

2007年2月26日星期一

what's wrong

it's really strange today . it's the first day of this term for studying . but i don't have any feeling of studying . i wake up early this morning , having 5 lessons , and have my lunch -- very simple , and then have another 3 lessons .

i am a little tired . but , it's the beginning , so , i'll do the homework the other day and now , i relax .

but the network of my school is very very slow , it makes downloading the movie very very difficult . and i'm not patiente , i'll be angry . so is the bbs . what's wrong with my computer!?

i feel a little frighten when i come back to this kind of collectivity . i don't want to be alone and i don't want to be seen in this kind of situation . i don't wank to talk , to learn . i want to say something deep in my heart . but the listener's not there .

yes , please , be strong even when i'm alone .
and cheer up , for tomorrow .

2007年2月25日星期日

back to school , now

i'm not feeling well , today . first , lonely ; second , tired ...

i have taken the intercity bus for about 6 hours -- 4 and a half hour is enough as usual , but the driver made a mistake for finding the right rode .

when i get back to my room , there's nobody there . a little time later , one of my roommates comes back , and we sweep the floor -- do some cleaning . and tidy up my stuff .

i just want to chat with somebody to say that i am back now, and it is not so good , cause i have to adapt the study life again .

i don't have a good sleep last night , so i am tired and sleepy now .
when i came back , mam asked me to have a good appetite and always be full , and go to bed earlier . and dad asked me to eat less rice and eat more vegetables and no bowels of the animals . and he also wanted me to care about other things like academic research or competition besides study .
i think it is really hard , or it's just because that i won't try my best ?

sleepy , tired , and want to say something , to somebody .
but , the blog makes a person think about more things ...

2007年2月24日星期六

going back

this is a small meeting of my classmates , have fun in her house , and have dinner together , then , talk -- just like what we do commonly .

tomorrow , i'll go back to school . it's a tough time when i have to make myself go back to a hard study life from relaxing all the time being at home . but , i have to ...

what will happen tomorrow ? a long trip from home to school , and during that time , i must make up my mind that it's time to going back to a normal and hard-working life . i'll do many things at school -- and face many problems , and i'll be alone -- to handle all of this .

it's sad to see the friends going home and leaving me behind . it's raining , today . and it makes the departing even more depressing . but i have my own life , and so do you . you don't need to care about me , and i don't need to think about you , we are in two different worlds -- i'm not good at communicating with others , especially when we are face to face . so , just move on , our regular lives and don't think about the person who's not worthy of your attention .

be good to yourself even when you are alone .

2007年2月23日星期五

the homecoming

we have the homecoming today . but i must take a bus for about 20 minutes , i don't know why there are so many people want to get in the bus , so we wait for a long time , and we get the chance finally .

we sing songs , we talk and we eat--all very casual and ordinary activities . then , have dinner , and drink beers . it's good that i only have a little .

we meet many classmates that we haven't been in touch with for a long time . and i find that the girls are all becoming prettier . the hair is curled , and have their own style . nice , really nice ! one of them is very beautiful , compared to her , i'm ashamed to show my face .

maybe sometimes i am afraid to dress up myself -- i don't want to be the obvious one in the crowd and i don' t want to lose . but it's not right , i should face the challenge , and settle it down .

some guys drink too much and say , or do something stupid . they are kind basically , and funny . but it is enough -- everything has its limit , so control it !

tomorrow will be the last day of my winter vacation spent at home . the day after tomorrow , i will be in the intercity bus , and head to school .
another term's coming . . .

2007年2月22日星期四

today

i go to see my grandma and grandpa , today . and have lunch and dinner there .

my poor grandma , there's something wrong with one of her legs , she can only walk by the help of crutch . she has so many children--four girls and three boys , all have their own families and she don't need to worry about them . but it's really longly and unhappy when we are not here . they rely on each other , and when they become old , they hold on the hands tightly . grandma can't be too tired , so anuts help to cook .

the cousins are all younger than me . one is only about 5 , so , i can only see the tv programms that they enjoy . it's terrible and very very boring .

then , mam buys me two shoes--all are high-heeled , a little expensive , and i'm excited!! yes , change myself .
there are many lovely clothes in the shop . but i have bought enough this winter vacation . i'll buy what i need in the school , and i don't need to say some awkard words to my parents that the money is not enough , actually it is me that don't want to waste the money .

anuts are worried about their children's study . and my dad is worried about my future--it's hard to find a good job and live on . dad is just a kind of man who is eager to learn something , something that is related to computer , and who is thinking about me all the time , but has a bad temper . but he is a good man generally .

2007年2月21日星期三

about beatuy

meet old friends-classmates actually , talk about some funny things . it's fine , and lovely . we also call on our english teacher in the senior middle school . he looks fit and healthy , and his little son is really cute . then , have dinner together and go on talking .

i find many pretty girls on the street . and we spend so much time and money on the appearance , i know it is necessary and helpful cause it's a world that always judges a person by his looks .

i think it's easy to become a very beautiful woman once you have the money , the time and the energy . but it's hard to reveal a special temperament that differs from others . and that means you are unique . it's the confidence of yourself deep in your heart , and is your intelligence's naturally outpouring .

i'm just almost as the same as i was in the senior middle school . maybe looks more like a grown-up . what i need is the confidence , i can be the best .

but , the beatuy will fade away as the time passes . what makes a couple be together for as long as maybe a few decades ? and what makes a girl become so perfect in someone's eyes that no one else can match her ? it's a hard and complicated question . there's no reason to love a person deeply . but someone says that in fact , you are just not clear about the reasons . anyway, i believe that there are many other facets between two lovers besides the exterior , and ther're more important .

"you are unique ." is really a very wonderful word for praising a girl .

2007年2月20日星期二

meet a countryman

when i play a network game--super dancer , i find a person with my town's name as his nickname . so i ask him if it is his hometown . and he said yes . and then i chat with him for quite a while .

i find we have a lot in common . we live in the same town , we learn the same major in the school . but he's older than me , and have worked for half a year . but he is not so satisfied with his job . the salary is too low , and he found that what he learned at school is useless .

i'm shocked . i've thought about that before , but i don't know it really happens . so , what we get from our school-life ? i always think that i can get many good things potentially , like the habit of learning , the way of getting along with others . but there will be a gap between the dream and the reality .

and he also advises me not to take the exam to become a graduate student . it's not good for a girl especially in a town like this . and he says it's not helpful . he's just shaking my heart to prepare for that exam .

and i just see somebody saying that his old classmate gets married recently , but he has no girlfriend and learns hard at school . it's a kind of imbalance . and that countryman also says he feels not so good when he found that his classmates lead a better lives , even have a car , but he is tired from working for that little money .

it's really hard . when you've tried so hard , but maybe what you get is very little . what can i do , then ?
where is the future ? have to work hard -- it means that you have tried , at least . so cruel ...

2007年2月19日星期一

go on driving ~~

Dad goes on teaching me driving this afternoon . but it's not so easy as yesterday . he asks me to drive here and there and suddently turn around . it's difficult , and he's even yelling at me . i'm scared and i don't want to make mistakes . so , after an hour and a half , we go back .

one of my friends of my junior middle school wants to ask all the classmates to get together to have fun , since i am the monitor and we have not been in touch with each other for a long time . but she just gives me the news that they have already hold this kind of homecomings some times .

i feel really sad and disappointed because i am the monitor , and i've never heard about the "get-together" thing . they just forget about me , totally ! but the guys i know seems don't know the situation , either . so , what's that ? maybe it's just a little party among the people who have some contacts .

and to be honest , during the time when i was in the junior middle school , i was not so happy , and i felt down and was indifferent to anything except studying . there must be some naughty guys who thought i was the odd fish and bookworm . and i departed myself from many of them . i can't remember how it happened , it was just a period of tough time to me . but i thingk maybe they now all have a quite good position , or some may even get married . so exicted !

if i have the chance , i really want to see them again before i go back to hangzhou . and i decide to go back next sunday-25 , February and i'll go with Lily . hmm... i'll leave home again ! take good care of yourself cause you are a grown man !

2007年2月18日星期日

Driving!!

This afternoon , i want to stay at home at first , because it's a rainy day , and i don't have any appointment . Mom and Dad are about to go outside to have fun or work or something else , and i'm thinking about to have a longly and poor day totoday , but it's the spring festival and it's once a year , it's special ! then , what can i do ? just turn to my computer...

just for a while , Dad's back . the office was locked , and he doesn't have the key . But he don't want me to stay at home and waste my time , so , he asks me out to learn to drive a car . i'm just a little curious . and i agree .

i've never thought driving is a easy thing , but it is , basically . the road is quite wide and there isn't any car or people . it's a safe and appropriate place for practising driving . but it's not planar and has many puddles . it's not so comfortable to drive there , but it's safe , and that's enough .

how to drive a care becomes more and more easier as the manipulation becomes simple . there are not many handles or buttons , you can drive a car running here and there only by pushing the accelerate pedal and stop it by pushing the brake pedal , and be careful of the direction . and then , all will be fine , and you will be safe .

of course , it's easy to say then to do . i only learn the very little part of driving , and i have no courage to drive on the street . i'll be nervous when i come across a man or a car . the most difficult part of driving is to drive masterly , and calmly when the traffic is heavy .

it's funny but a little tired to drive a car ... and it is really memorable .
to learn something new , you'll find your confidence , and yourself a brand new one . cool!!

2007年2月17日星期六

the spring festival

The spring's coming , and this is the China's bigest and the most traditional festival-the spring festival . it means reunion , hopes and wishes . we send "happy new year!"to each other, and give them the devout blessing and make a wish for the next year.

All the family get together and have a fabulous dinner, then watch TV. but now we usually surf on the web and chat with friends and send wishes.

the firecracker is loud and a little noisy, but it constructs the atmosphere of the traditional festival . when the new day comes , firing the firecracker will mean a good start of the new year. so , mom is waiting for that moment . and the neighbors will do the same thing then . This night will be a bright, busy, and wonderful one

just shout out "happy the spring festival","i'll be fine the next year, and you all will","dreams come true","best wishes to all the guys who i know"!!!

2007年2月16日星期五

somebody

one day , i will meet somebody who cares about me, respects me and encourages me ... and i really trust him and rely on him...

But now, i only enjoy my single life...

sometimes , i'm moved by some very simple words , like : "have a good dream", or "do you miss me last night for i didn't call you",or"i'm a good and reliable man"...they're kind and funny boys , and we've ever chatted happily . but we just don't be in touch with eath other suddenly...i don't know why, but i think maybe because the real problems come up when you begin to understand a person deeply--the personality , the habits , the attitude , and so on...

and i feel ashamed to think of the words he ever told to me...it's really just a jok , but i treat it as a little gleam of hope...and then i found that he put his girlfriend's picture as his mobile telephone's wallpaper...we can be friend as he is a kind person and he knows how to take care of a girl...he can make me laugh , and make me happy...but i can't imagine what will happen if he becomes my boyfriend...i won't accept him , really...

so only think about the future , there will be somebody...and i believe that

2007年2月14日星期三

about plan

Time just passes quickly, and i'm thinking about the words--"do not waste your time", "make a plan , and try your best to do things according to it","to learn from the successful people", and someting like that...i just need to encourage myself since these days i'm at home and have fun all the time and almost forget about the"future things"--just like having a good job, being a lovely and pretty lady,or furthering my study,going abroad to have a look around and so on...and i really need to prepare for that right now, just trying my best and having a clear mind ...i'm wondering whether i can keep on writing the english blog every day...but just have faith, right?

i've began to see the sitcom--ghost whisperer . the heroine is really beautiful and is a warm hearted girl. and the story is about how does she help the dead to accomplish their wishes and then they can be calm and go to another place with the blessing from the relatives...it's the dialogur between the dead and the living, maybe sorrowful , but "death is just part of the living" , that's true. and someone die, it's just his time . life is going on . we should cherish the moment with the people who is important to us right now and don't fell in deep sorrow to the ones who passed away...they are in the memorys and we'll miss them always...

2007年2月6日星期二

i'm trying so hard!

i'm wordering if it is work~This is the first english blog for me , and this is the first passage...excited~
i don't know what to talk about , only i wanna say is : yeah, it's such a long holiday,i mush do something which is meaningful,and for myself.
i need to have a try ! and i'll work hard~
well , fine~whatever,tomorrow will be OK!

recently i'm enjoying the song:happy together , by The Turtles

Imagine me & U,I do.
I think about U day & night.
It's only right.
To think about the girl U love.
And hold her tight.
So happy together.
If I should call U up,invest a dime ? ?
And U say U belong 2 me.
And ease my mind.
Imagine how the world could be.
So very fine.
So happy together.
I can see me lovin' nobody but U.
For all my life.
When U're with me baby the skies'll be blue.
For all my life.
Me & U,and U & me.
No matter how they toss the dice.
It had 2 be.
The only one 4 me is U.
And U 4 me.
So happy together.
Ba-Ba-Ba-Ba Ba-Ba-Ba-Ba Ba-Ba-Ba-Ba Ba-Ba-Ba-Ba.
So happy together !
How is the weather(Ba-Ba-Ba-Ba Ba-Ba-Ba-Ba).
So happy together(Ba-Ba-Ba-Ba Ba-Ba-Ba-Ba)
We're happy together(Ba-Ba-Ba-Ba Ba-Ba-Ba-Ba)!
Happy together(Ba-Ba-Ba-Ba Ba-Ba-Ba-Ba)!

  the rhythm is brisk and really a very lovely song~
just happy together!